“In A World Where You Can Be Anything, Be Kind.”

*Trigger Warning*

This post contains mentions of suicide, depression, anxiety and mental health problems.

Unless you’ve been living under a rock, please note – there’s truly no judgement from me if you have, sometimes I think it would make a much easier life. Well, maybe a little uncomfortable however, I’m clearly going off track. My point being, if you’re in the United Kingdom, you probably know that today marks a year since Caroline Flack passed away, an incredible tragedy, with yet another life taken by the cruel reality of mental illness.

Caroline shared this very quote just two months before she died, in one of her final posts on her Instagram Account. These words became the basis of the Be Kind Movement which, in doing a bit of quick research, I’ve discovered the charity was actually formed in May 2015 by Premila Puri. However, with Caroline’s tragic passing, it has heightened the awareness and importance of such a simple but often overlooked act, just being a kind human being. 

As someone who has had their fair amount of mental health struggles for over half of their life and also happens to be a very empathetic person, it hit me particularly hard. I understand if some may think I don’t have the right to feel sadness, or any form of emotion about Caroline’s death, especially as I didn’t know her personally, nor was I ever fortunate enough to have met her. In all honesty, I sometimes think like that too and not just with Caroline. Whenever anyone loses their life tragically and particularly with suicide, I always feel an incredible amount of pain and at the same time, my mind tells me I don’t have the right to do that. 

I find it hard to think about anything else and if a person or particular situation is brought up in conversation, I often feel the need to change the topic or completely shut it down. I simply find it too overwhelming and feel a recurring cloud of sadness come over me. I really hate that specific metaphorical cloud. Clouds in the sky, you’re all wonderful and I appreciate you brightening or sometimes dulling our blue skies. 

I think this is because suicide in particular surrounds many of my intrusive thoughts and fears. I want to emphasize I am not suicidal, nor do I have any intent or plans to end my life, quite the opposite in fact. I’m truly terrified of this incredibly painful ending and it causes me so much sadness and distress to even think of talking about it. Just writing this blog post is already giving me a lot of anxiety, but I know how important it is to speak out and I try and be as honest as I can be. Especially with my mental health because I know how isolating and lonely these feelings can leave a person and well, it can sometimes offer a little comfort, which I’m all for. 

Also, I want to point out how every single person in the world has intrusive thoughts, they’re part of being a human. A study last year by Psychology experts at the Queen’s University in Canada, showed how people have around 6,200 thoughts.. a day, which is to say the least, a hell of a lot of them. Therefore, it’s inevitable that quite a few of them may be a little unsettling, however, the majority simply let the thought pass by and move on with their day to day life. The difference with intrusive thoughts becoming an anxiety disorder, is when you start to over analyse meticulously and ruminate in depth about the reason you’re having them. I mean, just typing out that one sentence explaining an anxiety ridden mind was pretty exhausting, let alone trying to read or even understand it if your mental health is perfectly fine. Therefore, all I ask is if you don’t necessarily understand, just a bit of listening and support can truly go a long way.

The irony is, mental health issues ironically often stem from rational behaviours, such as evolution’s fight or flight tactic, yet sometimes, the mind can go a little off balance and that’s okay, no body is perfect and to be honest, the world would be a lot less colourful if we all were. Ultimately, it’s just important to be aware and accept our many faults and glitches. Plus, with a bit of love, care, sometimes medication and therapy, can help a person feel embraced and accepted in society. 

Intrusive thoughts in particular, link to an incredibly trivialized anxiety disorder called Obsessive Compulsive Disorder, commonly shortened to OCD. People without this mental health problem, just accept their thousands of thoughts as what they are, a simple thought. They let it go and move on with their day to day life, probably forgetting it the minute it passes through their brain, which is basically one of my many aims in life. Unfortunately, that is not the case for me and hasn’t been since I was around eleven years old, so a pretty long time. A pang of anxiety and fear will hit my body, which results in a vicious, often exhausting cycle of compulsions and neutralization to, “fix” the thought – which eventually ends up becoming a daily part of your life.

What’s even more frustrating is, the majority of the time the sufferer is aware of the absurd claim that repeating a task or sentence will automatically make everything better, we know magical thinking is just that and tragically, Hogwarts is.. not real. But the brain is incredibly intricate and the anxiety thrives on fear, it loves it!

What’s more, it simply adores controlling and manipulating you into vulnerability and succumbing to your fears by making you engage and listen to the mind bully, which is definitely not a fun time when you constantly feel your brain is against you. My intrusive thoughts in particular – and I want to point out that they’ve had many years to multiply and change, as I wasn’t diagnosed with anxiety and depression until I was 17 years old. Well, they go after everything I love and fear.

Which leads me to summarize, if you’re a sensitive soul and feel a lot of emotions, you can maybe comprehend why a person can end up becoming full of anxiety and often sadness. I’ve learnt to accept that I will most likely always have mental health problems and that’s alright, I say to myself I’d much rather I was suffering than someone else. I say this not because I’m a Martyr and incredible human being, if you know me you’ll know I in fact have the self esteem level of a pea – I assume it’s really small, if not I’ll have to think of something else. I say this because I’m so incredibly fortunate to have an amazing support system – my mum especially is truly my rock and I don’t know who or where I’d be without her.

I know so many people who fight the invisible illness do not get their happy ending and it breaks my heart, truly destroys it. I can’t tell you how many tears I’ve shed over people passing away before their time, not only does it terrify me more than words can say, the empathy in me starts wishing I could have been able to help and make them realize how appreciated and loved they are.

In May 2012, my would be second year of Sixth Form –  (I’d ended up leaving after the first year due to mental health struggles), a person who was in my school year committed suicide. I remember seeing on social media that they’d passed away, I assumed it was down to a tragic accident and tried to switch off thinking about it. However, my brother ended up coming in my room and asked if I had heard what had happened, I said yes and then I distinctly remember him saying, “He hung himself. He hung himself.” which ultimately broke me and I’m pretty sure that’s when the fear of suicide began. 

I want to point out that I wasn’t close to this person, I sat by them in English in Year 8 and had a pretty big crush on them in Year 7, but that was literally as far as any form of contact went. They were one of the popular guys and I remember desperately trying to comprehend and understand why this had happened, how could this be real? I obviously know this doesn’t resolve or change anything, but I guess I wanted to find some closure and to be able to calm my mind. 

As with Caroline, I often end up feeling an immense sense of guilt for having such sadness and emotion regarding their death. I felt I didn’t have the right to have these emotions and I wasn’t a family member or friend so it wasn’t really any of my business. However, I do remember one of my many Therapists saying how your pain is your pain, so I try and remind myself that every now and then. Despite me viewing myself as less than others, which I know is not healthy and I really need to fix, my feelings are still valid. I can honestly say it’s been almost 9 years since this tragedy happened and there is not one single day that I’ve not thought about this person. Horrifically, there would be another male in my year who was lost by suicide in 2015. There are no words which can express the sorrow felt in writing that sentence.

I regularly think of myself as the random crying girl in Mean Girls, who, if you haven’t seen the film, (if I’m brutally honest I am slightly judging) she turns up at the school and starts saying, and I quote,

I wish we could all get along like we used to in middle school, I wish I could bake a cake filled with rainbows and smiles and everyone would eat and be happy.

It’s then pointed out that she in fact, doesn’t even go to the school and she responds with, “I just have a lot of feelings.

I’ve always related to that.

Of course, no one is forcing me to be this way and if I could switch it off or snap out of it, I’d probably be a lot happier. A couple of years ago I had an Interview and it happened to be a group one, pretty daunting to say the least. However, I remember us being asked what would we like to be doing career wise, what was our goal etc. When it was my time to answer I said how in all honesty I didn’t really care what I was doing or how much I’d achieved as long as I was happy and content with myself, I truly stand by that. Something that is so simple but often taken for granted and incredibly hard to obtain.

When it was time for the one on one Interview I ended up talking about my mental health issues and found out that one of the girls who had worked that had tragically ended up taking her own life. Needless to say I didn’t get the job, I’m assuming they would have been pretty apprehensive about hiring someone with mental health problems again, even though I wasn’t suicidal. However, I don’t regret talking about it, in a weird way I’m proud of myself for doing so I guess.

If I truly had some magical powers, I’d love to make the world a better place and stop all the suffering, something I hope most people would agree with. Sadly a lot of mental health issues are trivialized and not taken seriously enough until it’s too late, which is why anytime I see an illness being used as an adjective I get so extremely frustrated. OCD is not a joke, cute quirk or someone who likes being clean, Bipolar is not a way to talk about an everyday mood swing and being, “sweet but psycho” isn’t an aesthetic.

For the people that say it’s a trend to have mental health issues or that it never used to be around, please educate yourself. 1 in 8 children have a mental health disorder, suicide is the biggest killer of men under 40 and 1 in 4 people in the UK is affected by a mental health problem. But, it’s alright to be that 1 in 4 and I don’t mind admitting I am one of many 1 in 4. Is it fun by any means? No, not at all. It’s exhausting and debilitating and you really have to learn how to take one day at time.

If you feel happy that doesn’t make you a bad person and you’re allowed to remind yourself, which I’m doing right now. I don’t feel particularly happy at the moment but, I have developed an annoying guilt complex in which I will feel bad for having a happy day or bad for feeling down – the outcome is always the same of course, I can’t win. 

I’m trying to talk about this is in sharing my own experiences and feelings in hope of having some form of epiphany and accepting myself. My mind is constantly putting me down, it reminds me how lucky and fortunate I am to have a loving family/home life and how I don’t have the right to feel depressed or anxious. Plus, how in writing all of this, it says I’m a hypocrite because I’m very much a work in progress and although I’ve came a fair way I still have a considerable amount to overcome, or learn to live with. I’ve been in and out of therapy since I was 17 years old and been on Anti-Depressants since I was 18, I’m not sure if they work for me but I’d rather be on them then not. I always end up feeling like a failure for not achieving certain things or being like, “everybody else”. It’s so frustrating to feel constantly at war with your mind and believe it or not, I really am trying to work on that, but sadly it’s not something that can change overnight. 

When I was particularly suffering a few years ago, I would avoid all news media outlets or change the channel, to prevent any upset or further anxiety. In going to therapy I ended up learning how that was a coping mechanism and not a sustainable or helpful one in the long run. Therefore, I’ve gone from avoiding the media to watching BBC News every day and going through many true crime documentaries on Netflix. I’m still pretty anxious and disturbed by it all and often think if I was in a Horror Movie I’d probably be the girl that was killed in the first 10 minutes. However, I have to remind myself that life isn’t perfect and sadly we can’t avoid all the bad things that happen.

Although, it’s fine to switch off and have a break every now and then, we’re only human after all. In avoiding all the tragedies and staying in my own little bubble I know I’m actually hurting my recovery and not learning to live with my mental health problems. Do they trigger and contribute to a hell of a lot of my intrusive thoughts, sadness and anxiety? Absolutely. However, sticking through the anxiety and realizing your body cannot stay in that heightened state forever, is one of the only ways you can learn to accept the unknown and know that with a little bit of hope and perhaps some Disney, everything will be alright in the end.

“I will be as sensitive as I am, without being ashamed of it.”  

– Written by Marilyn Monroe in her Record Notebook in 1955.

Here’s some links that I’ve used for this post or thought might be helpful;

 THE HEALTH FOUNDATION
• YOUNG MINDS
SAMARITANS
 MIND
• OCD UK
BE KIND MOVEMENT
IN THE STYLE: KINDNESS COLLECTION; (100% PROFITS GO TO SAMARITANS)

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Essence Cosmetics X Disney Princess Collection.

As someone who has lived and breathed all things Disney for as long as they can remember, unintentionally discovering another Collaboration with Beauty Brand, Essence Cosmetics – on Wilko of all places, was a surprise I was very happy about! 

The Disney Princess Collection features three of Walt’s Royal Heroines; two from the Classic Era – the original Princess,  Snow White and Sleeping Beauty’s Aurora and one from the Renaissance Era – The Little Mermaid’s Ariel.

With Lockdown 3.0 continuing throughout the UK, having any shops to visit that aren’t online is a rare experience. Therefore, after browsing through Instagram and coming across this gorgeous Collection, I took a moment to sympathize with my Bank Account, as we both knew the inevitable was coming – bye bye money! 

Unfortunately, with a quick bit of research, it does now seem that Wilko have sadly stopped stocking the three Eyeshadow Palettes. Fear not though, Notino are also stockists of the products and although a lot are out of stock currently, you can click to be notified when available.

As well as the Disney Princess Collection, there is also a Disney Villains with their sister Brand, Catrice Cosmetics, featuring Maleficent, Ursula and The Evil Queen. 

I managed to get four products from the Essence Collaboration;

ESSENCE X DISNEY PRINCESS EYE BRUSH AND BAG SET:

Contains a rose gold brush bag, with three matching brushes;

• Snow White Eyeshadow Brush
• Aurora Smudging Brush
• Ariel Blending Brush

ESSENCE X DISNEY PRINCESS ARIEL 01 PART OF YOUR WORLD EYESHADOW PALETTE:

Featuring Ariel from The Little Mermaid (1989) – 14 warm, gold and red shades, embossed with sea shells.

Curious – warm copper shimmer.
Starfish – light beige matte.
Ocean – orange shimmer.
Waves – medium gold shimmer.
Headstrong – burgundy shimmer.
Treasures – medium peach nude matte.
Flounder – peach metallic shimmer.
Sea Witch – pink and orange pressed pigment.
Mermaid – ruby red matte.
Crab – light gold shimmer.
Explorer – vibrant yellow shimmer.
Kiss The Girl – coral pink matte.
Seagull – dark brown matte.
Under The Sea –  metallic brown shimmer.

ESSENCE X DISNEY PRINCESS SNOW WHITE 02 MY PRINCE WILL COME EYESHADOW PALETTE:

Featuring Snow White from Snow White and the Seven Dwarfs (1937) – 14 cool, nude and copper shades, embossed with apples.

Green Wood – vibrant yellow shimmer.
Forrest Cabin – cool ivory matte.
Seven Mountains – cool metallic brown shimmer.
Dwarves – hunter green pressed pigment.
Huntsman – warm brown and silver shimmer.
Mirror – peachy gold shimmer.
True Love’s Kiss – warm gold shimmer.
Poisoned Apple – copper shimmer.
Wicked Witch –  cobalt blue shimmer.
Pure Hearted – muted brown matte.
Ebony – light yellow gold shimmer.
Cottage – warm orange brown shimmer.
Happy End – brown gold shimmer.
Cheerful – bronze metallic shimmer.

ESSENCE X DISNEY PRINCESS AURORA 03 ONCE UPON A DREAM EYESHADOW PALETTE:

Featuring Aurora from Sleeping Beauty (1959) – 14 pink, mauve and metallic shades, embossed with roses.

Golden Hair – warm gold shimmer.
Kiss – cool porcelain matte.
Kingdom – pink nude matte.
Castle – mauve matte.
Deep Sleep – metallic dark purple shimmer.
Spinning Wheel – light gold shimmer.
Fairy – silvery gold shimmer.
Thorn Hedge – deep purple and gold pressed pigment.
Roses – hot pink matte.
Golden Leave – baby pink mauve matte.
Curse – warm gold shimmer.
Dark Magic – cool dark burgundy matte.
Magic Wand – copper shimmer.
True Love – cool medium brown shimmer.

All of the Palettes are £10.00, which I think is an extremely good price, especially with it being an official Disney Collaboration and each one does include a mirror. I’ve tried all of the products multiple times and was pleasantly surprised at the pigment and quality of the Eyeshadows.

Out of the 42 shades, my favourite has to be Sea Witch from Ariel’s Palette, it’s absolutely beautiful and in all honesty, I wasn’t expecting it to be as vibrant as it looks. It’s perfect to use for an extra pop as a lid topper too. However, if I had to pick just one to own, it would definitely be Aurora’s, as not only is she is my favourite Princess, (Cinderella also) I love the variation of pinks and aesthetic of the colours.

The only slight disappointment within the Collection, would have to be the shades in Snow White’s Palette. This is simply because I can’t comprehend how there is not one single red colour within the fourteen available. I mean, I really think they’re missing something there as I’ve always associated this signature shade much more with Snow White than with Ariel.

With hers I’d expect more cool toned blues/purples and maybe one red for her hair and Sebastian – of course! Ultimately, the general aesthetic is a bit underwhelming for Snow White’s Palette and with only two matte shades – Aurora’s has six and Ariel’s has 5, there’s not really enough colours and variations to work with to create a full stand alone look.

However, I simply could not have left one out, they are definitely a must buy for any Disney fan and I will absolutely treasure them. The beautiful detailing and consistency in the overall aesthetic and theme for the Collection is greatly appreciated too. Thank you Essence Cosmetics and Disney for blessing us makeup lovers with this Collaboration and I hope there’s more to come! 

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Revolution Beauty X Friends Series 1 Eyeshadow Palettes.

Firstly, long time no post! With every day life and in the insanity of 2020, I’ve sadly been neglecting Blogging and regularly posting. However, my love for all things Makeup related has never been far from my mind, in fact you could almost say it’s grown considerably – if that was even possible! As someone who suffers with various Mental Health issues, the creativity of the Beauty World has always been a nice outlet for me to try and switch off and have some fun with the weird and wonderful products released so often. However, the irony is my creativity and perfectionism can almost be a hindrance, as sadly, my anxiety loves to control me and my happiness, which is why all I can do is try and push forward, starting with this.

Therefore, although I’ve not been sharing much, I have been regularly purchasing new palettes and lipsticks, which has formed quite an archive! Therefore, I’ve decided to share my latest buys and an overall summary of the items contents and my humble opinion on it etc.

Since Revolution Beauty, (formerly known as Makeup Revolution) burst onto the High Street in 2014, they’ve grown from strength to strength, having amassed 2.9 million followers on Instagram. They’ve collaborated with a number of huge Celebs and Brands, including one of the most popular TV Shows of all time; FRIENDS – which is what I’m going to be reviewing in this post.

I think one of the huge successes with Revolution has to be, not only their reasonable pricing, but the high qualities they create, which are usually only expected with high end Brands. As someone who wears both high and mid/lower end products, I’ve really learnt that higher pricing does not always mean better products.

Having first aired in 1994, Friends captured the hearts of millions worldwide, finishing it’s long run ten years later in 2004, after 235 episodes. Since Netflix started to stream the show in 2018, it’s continued to snowball in popularity and has attracted even more fans. So much so that a Series 1 Makeup Collection with Revolution was released on September 16th 2020, with a Series 2 Collection being launched on November 4th, just under two months later.

The Phoebe, Monica and Rachel Eyeshadow Palettes feature iconic places in Friends on the packaging, all specifically associated with each of the three female lead characters and retail for just £8, with nine shadows.

Strangely, I weirdly like that the packaging doesn’t have the characters on the artwork. At first, I think I was a bit disappointed by this, but now I actually quite like it. There’s not many shows that can have such iconic places and items that are instantly recognizable, further cementing the legendary status of Friends and all who were involved.

Although I love all characters dearly, my favourite has and will always be Phoebe, her quirkiness, ditsy but quick witted responses and inclusiveness of all has always warmed my heart and endeared me to her. Furthermore, it just so happens that out of three palettes hers is my most loved – coincidence? I think not!

REVOLUTION X FRIENDS PHOEBE EYESHADOW PALETTE:

Featuring Phoebe’s Grandmother, Frances’ Yellow Taxi Cab as the artwork;

Smelly Cat – rose gold shimmer.
Lobster – warm orange matte.
Triplet – mauve pink shimmer.
Ice – warm brown matte.
Flaky – warm gold shimmer.
Buffay – muted cool pink matte.
Science Boy – silver pressed pigment.
Bike – icy blue shimmer.
Ditsy – warm rusty copper shimmer.

REVOLUTION X FRIENDS RACHEL EYESHADOW PALETTE:

Featuring Rachel’s one time workplace, Central Perk as the artwork;

Shopping – cool white matte.
On A Break – vibrant gold shimmer.
Dinosaur – muted light brown matte.
90’s –mauve pink shimmer.
Barneys – cool mid brown matte.
Tag – silver shimmer.
Chip – warm copper shimmer.
Push Over – hot pink matte.
Crush – dark cool brown matte.

REVOLUTION X FRIENDS MONICA EYESHADOW PALETTE:

Featuring the iconic purple door with golden frame of Monica’s Apartment as the artwork;

*Fun fact* it was originally a mirror which got broken by a crew member and all I can say is, thank god it did and I really hope they weren’t fired..

Clean – white gold shimmer.
Chef – warm copper shimmer.
Geller Cup – cool burgundy matte.
Chicken – cool pink nude matte.
Twins – icy silver pressed pigment.
Frizzy – cool dark brown matte.
Bing – cool nude matte.
Obsessive – peach matte.
Thanksgiving – burgundy shimmer.

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58 Years Without Marilyn.

It’s hard to believe 58 years to the day, on the night of August 4th, the world’s most famous Star would leave us all. Yes, I know a lot of you will be thinking, “wait, didn’t she die on the 5th?” – she was found in the early hours of that morning, and her death was announced then – so that is the “technical” date. However, as with many Marilyn “facts” that too is incorrect and so like every year, I will be posting this on the 4th.

I’m not going to write about all the ridiculous dramas and he said she said statements that have grown rapidly over the years, as they don’t deserve any more coverage. Whenever a major celebrity dies, the more shocking the statement, the more attention it gains, so much so that it’s almost became ingrained into society as being accepted as fact. But, I am going to have a big name and shame moment for the two main culprits – Robert Slatzer and Norman Mailer I’m looking at you both. Also Anthony Summers – you’re a piece of crap and I will never forgive you for publishing Marilyn’s autopsy photo in your toilet paper worthy biography.

Long story short as they don’t deserve any mention with Marilyn’s name – Slatzer created the whole Kennedy, Mafia and basically everything shit and defamatory written about Marilyn in the early 1970s. If you want to find out the actual truth with documented facts click HERE.

Sorry to disappoint any conspiracy lovers – Marilyn didn’t love JFK, nor did any of the Kennedy’s kill her, she died of an either accidental or intentional prescription drug overdose. Was I there? No, I wasn’t even alive, but it’s really not hard to disregard the nonsense and absurd claims, when you actually take the time to do a little (a lot in my case) of research.

Thankfully, I was lucky and never fell down that ridiculous rabbit hole in the first place. I discovered Marilyn whilst reading an article in Vanity Fair magazine almost ten years ago, discussing the then upcoming release of, Fragments: Poems, Intimate Notes, Letters by Marilyn Monroe.

This book is truly one of a kind and is basically a published archive of many of Marilyn’s personal letters, excerpts and anecdotes she had written from 1943 until 1962. Before anyone says it’s disrespectful to publish/share these and it is an invasion of privacy, to an extent I agree. However, as stated a few moment ago, with the amount of disrespectful, outrageous nonsense that has been slurred out over the half a century since Marilyn left us – I think it’s a necessity to see her own words in print. Ironically enough, it’s almost as if Marilyn herself foreshadowed the future of the media, when she said this in an Interview to Georges Belmont for Marie Claire Magazine in April 1960.

The true things rarely get into circulation, it’s usually the false things.

Therefore, today I have decided to focus on Marilyn herself, not as a Star, Tragic Icon or a pretty face, but as a human who had a beautiful, sensitive soul. Some of you may already know, but for those who don’t, Marilyn actually wrote numerous poems throughout her years, mostly just for herself. In her rare moments of confidence, she would occasionally show a few to her close friend, Writer Norman Rosten, who said the following in his (must have) book, Marilyn Among Friends.

“She had the instinct and reflexes of the poet, but she lacked the control.”

“Although she gave the appearance of being so confident and self assured, she was in reality incredibly self conscious and her own biggest critic, which is heartbreaking really as she was truly gifted. She was such a perfectionist that she would spend hours preparing herself mentally and physically for her beloved fans, regularly looking in the mirror at her perceived flaws. Marilyn was infamous for her lateness, which is often viewed as diva like behaviour. However, the reality is, it’s rarely noted that her anxiety was so severe, she would break out in rashes and even vomit, before going on set.

In her final interview with LIFE Magazine, published one day before her death, she even said to Journalist Richard Meryman,

“I’m one of the world’s most self conscious people. I really have to struggle.”

I remember the first time I looked through Fragments, of course it was very upsetting to see her pain written down and think about her suffering, However, I strongly noticed this recurring theme of hope, despite some incredibly sad notes, there was always some sparkle of inner strength and I just thought that should be said. Often we ourselves don’t see our bravery and bouts of determination in our inner self, but others do and I for one am glad I can see in Marilyn what she could not.

I love you with all of my heart Marilyn, from the moment you came into my life, a decade ago in October 2010. Wherever you may be, I hope you know how much love, joy and happiness you have brought and continue to bring to many people’s lives each day.
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• Undated Poem. 

Life – 
I am of both of your directions
Somehow remaining hanging downward
the most
but strong as a cobweb in the 
wind – I exist more with the cold glistening frost.
But my beaded rays have the colors I’ve
seen in a painting – ah life
they have cheated you
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• Undated Poem shared with Norman Rosten and published in his book, Marilyn: An Untold Story.

To the Weeping Willow

I stood beneath your limbs
and you flowered and finally clung to me
and when the wind struck with.. the earth
and sand – you clung to me.
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• Undated Poem

Stones on the walk
every color there is
I stare down at you
like a horizon –
the space / the air is between us beckoning
and I am many stories up
my feet frightened
as I grasp towards you
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• Undated Poem

Only parts of us will ever
touch parts of others –
one’s own truth is just
that really – one’s own truth.
We can only share the
part that is within another’s knowing acceptable
so one
is for most part alone.
As it is meant to be in
evidently in nature – at best perhaps it could make
our understanding seek
another’s loneliness out.
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Undated Poem

for life
It is rather a determination not to be overwhelmed.

for work
The truth can only be recalled, never invented
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• “Record” Black Notebook – Written in throughout 1951.

What I do believe in
What is truth
I believe in myself
even my most delicate
intangible feelings
in the end everything is
intangible
my most precious liquid must
never spill don’t spill your precious liquid
life force
they are all my feelings
no matter what
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• “Record” Black Notebook – Written in throughout 1951.

Fear of giving me the lines new

maybe won’t be able to learn them
maybe I’ll make mistakes
people will either think I’m no good or
laugh or belittle me or think I can’t act.
Women looked stern and critical –
unfriendly and cold in general
afraid director won’t think I’m any good.
remembering when I couldn’t do a god
damn thing.
then trying to build myself up with the
fact that I have done things right that
were even good and have had moments
that were excellent but the bad is heavier
to carry around and feel have no confidence
depressed mad
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• Other “Record” Notebook – Written in throughout 1955.

I do know ways people
act unconventionally – mainly
myself – do not be afraid of
my sensitivity or to use it – for I 

can & will channel it + crazy thoughts too
I want to do my scene or exercises
(idiotic as they may seem)
as sincerely as I
can knowing and showing
how I know it is also – no
matter – what they might
think – or judge from it
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• Other “Record” Notebook – Written in throughout 1955.

I can and will help
myself and work on
things analytically no
matter how painful – if I
forget things (the unconscious
wants to
forget – I will only try to remember)
Discipline – Concentration

my body is my body
every part of it.
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• Other “Record” Notebook – Written in throughout 1955.

feel what I feel
within myself – that is trying to
become aware of it
also what I feel in others
not being ashamed of my
feeling, thoughts – or ideas

realize the thing that
they are –
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• Waldorf Astoria Stationery – Written in throughout 1955.

Sad, sweet trees – 
I wish for you – rest
but you must be wakeful
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• Waldorf Astoria Stationery – Written in throughout 1955.

Not a scared
lonely little girl
anymore

Remember you can sit on top of the world (it doesn’t feel like it.)
You can have any help you want personally – or in your
work – or anything else you want –
There are technical ways to go about it
or problems –  figure out if anything tec. can be done
about it because there are people to help you – gladly – you
more than most they want to help
Remember there is nothing you
lack – nothing to be self conscious about
yourself – you have everything but the discipline
and technique which you are learning & seeking
on your own –
after all nothing was or
is being given to you –
you have had none of this
work thrown your way
you sought it
– it didn’t seek you

Too much talent
Too much ability and 
and much too much sensitivity to invert yourself
out of fear – not come to class –
or to do things like being afraid to come to
class or to get up.

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• “Italian Agenda” Notebook  – Written throughout 1955 or 1956.

and the more
I think of
it the more
I realize there
are no answers
life is to be
lived

and since it is comparatively
so short – (maybe too short – maybe too long –
the only thing I know for sure, it isn’t easy

now that I want to live
and I feel suddenly not old
not concerned about previous
thing except to protect
myself – my life – and to
desperately (pray) tell
the universe I trust it
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• Parkside House Stationery – Written during her stay in England between July 14th – November 20th 1956.

I guess I have always been
deeply terrified to really be someone’s
wife
since I know from life
one cannot love another,
ever, really.
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• Roxbury Notes – Written throughout 1957 or 1958.

In every spring the green is too sharp – though the delicacy in their form is
sweet and uncertain – it puts up a good struggle in the wind 
trembling all the while. Those leaves will relax, expand in the sun and each
raindrop they will resist even when they’re battered and ripped. I think I am
very lonely – my mind jumps. I see myself in the mirror now, brow furrowed –
if I lean close I’ll see – what I don’t want to know – tension, sadness, 
disappointment, my eyes dulled, cheeks flushed with capillaries that look
like rivers on maps – hair lying like snakes. The mouth makes me the saddest 
next to my dead eyes. There is a dark line between the lips in the outline of 
several waves in a turbulent storm – it says don’t kiss me, don’t fool 
me I’m a dancer who cannot dance.
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• Roxbury Notes – Written throughout 1957 or 1958.

re – relationships

Everyone’s childhood plays itself out
No wonder no one knows the other or can completely understand.
By this I don’t know if I’, just giving up with this conclusion or resigning
myself –  or maybe for the first time connecting with reality –

how do we know the pain of another’s earlier years let alone
all that he drags with him since along the way at best a lot of lee-way is
needed for the other – yet how much is unhealthy for one to bear.

I think to love bravely is the best and accept – as much as one can bear.
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BLACK LIVES MATTER.

Firstly, I want to apologize in advance for any insensitivity or inaccuracies in this post. I cannot pretend I am as educated as I would like to be, but I am extremely passionate in learning about others and using my privilege for good.

Since the horrific murder of African American, George Floyd on May 25th 2020, rightful outrage has broken out worldwide over the injustice and disgraceful blatant racism that is still going on in 2020. Fifty seven years since Martin Luther King Jr. spoke his, “I Have A Dream” speech during the March On Washington For Jobs And Freedom on August 28th 1963. Fifty one years since Marsha P. Johnson, a Black Trans Woman, Sylvia Rivera, a Latina American Transgender Activist, Raymond Castro, a Latino gay man, Miss Major Griffin – Gracy, a Black Trans woman and Storm Delaverie, a Mixed Raced lesbian, fought during the Stonewall Riots on June 28th 1969. Which begs the question, why is it half a century later so many Black Lives are being taken mercilessly each day?

With June being the month of PRIDE and as I am hugely passionate about LGBTQ+ Rights, I feel it is important to note that the first riot protesting was led by Black Trans Women and Gay Men. I must mention that Black Trans Women have an average life span of 35 YEARS – just let that sink in for a moment.

We are all the same, we are all human, nobody is born racist. It is so wonderful to have so many colours and cultures within our world and yet a huge number of people are hurting this. Without variety we would not be able to educate one another and learn about each others history.

For the people that are posting about how, “All Lives Matter” I can’t emphasize enough how frustrating this is. No one is saying that white people don’t matter, the injustice is not harming white people, there is no racial prejudice and harm coming to myself because of the colour of my skin. Yes, every single person in the world suffers and has hard times, but BAME are the only ones being persecuted because of their skin. The “Black Lives Matter” movement is bringing awareness to the dangers so many people suffer every single day, living in fear doing the most mundane things that we so often take for granted. It is worth noting that white people will never understand this pain and fear, but we can understand the suffering so many people of colour go through and try and prevent it from continuing. I have started a thread on my Twitter, to share each petition I have signed, hoping that others will take a few minutes to do the same – it is the least we can do.

I’m also going to share each of the petitions in this post, with information about the victims who have suffered such pain. People may have seen the murder of George Floyd and think this is the first of it’s kind and tragically, it is not. Police brutality is extremely real and not only is it happening in the USA, it is happening in the UK too. Inquest, have stated there have been 1741 DEATHS in police custody or otherwise following contact with the police in England and Wales since 1990, with 14% and 183 of them being of BAME . In 2019, mappingpolicebrutality states there were only 27 DAYS IN 2019 where police did not kill someone, 24% of the victims were black, despite being 13% of the population and in 99% of the killings NO ONE HAS BEEN CHARGED.

I simply must take the time to thank the amazing Nico, who runs blacklivesmatters, because of you I have been able to educate myself and sign petitions on incredible people, that I admittedly had no idea existed. Thanks to thehindu website, I have learnt that between 2013 – 2019, 42 PER MILLION populations of African Americans were killed in police shootings – the highest among races, with statistics showing they are THREE TIMES more likely to be murdered than white people. Furthermore, over 17% of African American victims were UNARMED.

Here are a few of the many lives which have been lost and families which have been destroyed. It is important to remember these victims and share their stories. I’m ashamed to say that I had only heard about one of the stories that I am posting, which goes to show how many are ignored, and never spoken about. This is not acceptable, no one deserves such inhumanity and suffering. I am aware that these facts are hard to read and may be triggering to some, which I do apologize for, not because they have to be read, but because they ever happened in the first place. It is our responsibility to educate ourselves and not turn a blind eye to the injustices and tragedies which is happening daily in our world.

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SAY THEIR NAMES.

TRAYVON MARTIN:

A 17 year old African American teenager, who was fatally shot in Sanford, Florida by George Zimmerman, on February 26th 2012. Trayvon was walking alone to his father’s fiancée’s house from a store and Zimmerman, a member of the community watch, saw Trayvon and reported him to the Sanford Police as suspicious. Several minutes later, there was an altercation and Zimmerman fatally shot Trayvon in the chest. Zimmerman was NOT charged at the time and when he eventually was tried, he was ACQUITTED of second-degree murder and manslaughter.

SANDRA BLAND:

A 28 year old African American woman, who was found hanged in her jail cell in Waller County, Texas, on July 13th 2015. Sandra had been pulled over for a minor traffic violation, three days earlier by State Trooper Brian Encinia, who ended up arresting her with the charge of assaulting a police officer. Part of the exchange was recorded and after authorities reviewed the footage, Encinia was placed on administrative leave for failing to follow proper traffic stop procedures. However, in December 2015, a grand jury decided AGAINST indicting the country sheriff and jail staff for any misdemeanors regarding Sandra’s tragic death. Encinia was eventually indicted for making false statements about Sandra’s arrest and was fired. However, in June 2017 the perjury charges against him were DROPPED, with the confirmation he would end his law enforcement career.

KATHRYN JOHNSTON:

A 92 year old African American woman, who was killed by undercover police in her home on Neal Street in northwest Atlanta on November 21st 2006. They broke down her door and fired 39 SHOTS at her, with five or six hitting – she fired one, which didn’t harm anyone. The officers were found to have falsified evidence, stating drugs were present in her home, which was the original cause for the raid. Jason R. Smith, Gregg Junnier, and Arthur Tesler were tried for MANSLAUGHTER and sentenced to only 10, 6 and 5 YEARS.

SEAN BELL:

A 23 year old African American man, who was killed the morning before his Wedding, on November 25th 2006. Detective Paul Headley fired one shot, officer Michael Carey fired three times, officer Marc Cooper shot FOUR TIMES, and officer Gescard Isnora shot ELEVEN TIMES and officer Michael Oliver shot 31 TIMES, reloading his gun AT LEAST once. Two of Sean’s friends, JOSEPH GUZMAN and TRENT BENEFIELD were severely wounded but thankfully survived. Isnora and Oliver were charged with first and second degree MANSLAUGHTER, whilst Cooper was charged with RECKLESS ENDANGERMENT. All three were ACQUITTED, only being fired or forced to resign from the force.

ERIC GARNER:

A 43 year old African American man, who was killed by New York police officer Daniel Pantaleo, after he was placed in a chokehold whilst being arrested on July 17th 2004. The medical examiners actually RULED HIS DEATH AS A HOMICIDE however, Pantaleo was NOT charged with murder and was only fired on August 19th 2019, MORE THAN FIVE YEARS after Eric’s death.

REKIA BOYD:

A 22 year old African American woman, who was killed by an off-duty Chicago police detective, Dante Servin, on March 21st 2012. Rekia’s friend, ANTONIA CROSS was also shot in the hand. Over a year later, in November 2013, Servin was charged with INVOLUNTARY MANSLAUGHTER, but was CLEARED OF ALL CHARGES, by Judge Dennis J. Porter on April 20th 2015. Servin resigned two days before his departmental hearing on May 17th 2016, FOUR YEARS after Rekia’s murder.

AMADOU DIALLO:

A 23 year old Guinean immigrant, who was murdered by four New York City plain clothed police officers, Sean Carroll, Richard Murphy, Edward McMellon, and Kenneth Boss, on February 4th 1999. They fired 41 SHOTS, of which 19 HIT AMADOU and were charged only with SECOND DEGREE MURDER – all ended up being ACQUITTED. In 2015, Boss was PROMOTED to sergeant – he had already murdered PATRICK BAILEY, a 22 year old Jamaican born American Citizen on October 31st 1997.

MICHAEL BROWN JR.:

A 18 year old African American man, who was murdered by Ferguson police officer Darren Wilson, on August 9th 2014. Michael was UNARMED with his friend, DORIAN JOHNSON and his body was left in the street for FOUR HOURS before he was removed. On August 11th, a Civil Rights Investigation was opened, but on March 4th 2015, CLEARED Wilson of any civil rights violations. He was NOT charged. On November 29th, Wilson resigned from the force, citing security concerns.

KIMANI “KIKI” GRAY:

A 16 year old African American boy, who was murdered by two plain clothed New York City police officers, Mourad Mourad and Jovaniel Cordova, on March 9th 2013. He was shot at ELEVEN TIMES, and was hit by SEVEN of them. Mourad was nominated for, “Cop Of The Year” in 2014, despite being named in THREE FEDERAL LAWSUITS FOR VIOLATING CIVIL RIGHTS along with another shooting in 2011. Both have NOT been charged.

KENNETH CHAMBERLAIN SR.:

A 68 year old African American man, who was murdered by police officer, Anthony Carelli after inadvertently triggering his LifeAid medical alert necklace. The officers broke down his door, even after Kenneth stated he did not need assistance and had asked them to leave. They stayed for one hour trying to force the door open and an officer called Stephen Hart, swore at him and called him horrific racist words. Kenneth was UNARMED, which DNA evidence has proven and was TASERED and shot at TWICE. In 2012 the case was reviewed by a grand jury and the officers were NOT charged.

TRAVARES MCGILL:

A 16 year old African American boy, who was murdered by security guards, William Patrick Swofford and Bryan Ansley, in a parking lot on July 16th 2005. Originally, the two men were NOT charged, it wasn’t until FOUR MONTHS later in November, that Swofford was charged with MANSLAUGHTER and both with SHOOTING INTO AN OCCUPIED VEHICLE. The charges later ended up being DISMISSED.

TAMIR RICE:

A 12 year old African American boy, who was SHOT TWICE in Cleveland, Ohio by police officer Timothy Loehmann, on November 22nd 2014. He was simply playing with a TOY GUN and ended up dying in hospital the next day. Loehmann was NOT CHARGED and was only fired THREE YEARS LATER in 2017, after it was revealed that he had been labelled an EMOTIONALLY UNSTABLE RECRUIT and UNFIT FOR DUTY in his previous job.

AIYANA STANLEY-JONES:

A 7 year old African American girl, who was murdered by police officer, Joseph Weekley, during a house raid, on May 16th 2010. In October 2011, Weekley was charged INVOLUNTARY MANSLAUGHTER and RECKLESS ENDANGERMENT WITH A GUN. Weekley ended up having two mistrials and the judge actually DISMISSED the involuntary manslaughter charge in the second one. Five years later, on January 28th 2015, Weekley was CLEARED of his reckless endangerment with a gun charge, meaning the third retrial would not happen.

FREDDIE GRAY:

A 25 year old African American man, who was arrested on April 12th 2015 by lieutenant Brian W. Rice, officer Edward Nero, and officer Garrett E. Miller, after running away from them, whilst they were patrolling. Freddie was subsequently charged with having a knife in his possession, although no harm was caused and the knife was not used. Freddie was then placed in a transport van within 11 minutes of his arrest and half an hour later he was IN A COMA. He died on April 19th, a week after his arrest, with his cause of death being stated as injuries to his spinal cord. The medical examiners ruled his death a HOMICIDE, saying that his injuries had been sustained whilst being transported and that the officers FAILED TO FOLLOW SAFETY PROCEDURES. Six officers were filed with various criminal charges, including MANSLAUGHTER, ILLEGAL ARREST, RECKLESS ENDANGERMENT and SECOND DEGREE “DEPRAVED-HEART” MURDER for officer Caesar R. Goodson Jr., who was driving the van. Each officer was granted a separate trial, Porters resulted in a MISTRIAL, whilst Nero, Rice and Goodson were all ACQUITTED. Any of the various other charges were subsequently DROPPED.

SEAN RIGG

A 40 year old black man, who died following a cardiac arrest whilst in police custody, in South London, England on August 28th 2008. Sean suffered with paranoid schizophrenia and was in a vulnerable mental state, resulting in the hostel staff he lived with calling 999 FIVE TIMES over a period of THREE HOURS. They were informed by operator, Maurice Glove that Sean was NOT A POLICE PRIORITY. Response was eventually made after members of the public had observed Sean acting strangely in the street. Four police officers chased him and he was handcuffed and restrained in a face down position, being LENT ON FOR 8 MINUTES. FOUR YEARS LATER in 2012, Southwalk Coroner’s Court concluded police had used, “UNSUITABLE AND UNNECESSARY FORCE” and their failings, “MORE THAN MINIMALLY” contributed to his death. In March 2013, sergeant Paul White and officer Mark Harratt were arrested on perverting the court of justice, regarding the evidence presented at Sean’s inquest. However, in October 2014, the CPS decided NOT to charge them. Sean’s family did request a Right To Review policy and White was charged with PERJURY – ultimately, he was ACQUITTED in November 2016.

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PETITIONS TO SIGN:

Here are some of the petitions I have came across to support, it simply takes a few seconds of your time and every signature helps. Please also take the time to read the victims stories and share, together our voices have power and can hopefully help in moving towards a happier and healthier society.

MINNEAPOLIS DISTRICT ATTORNEY: RAISE THE DEGREE
JUSTICE FOR GEORGE FLOYD (1)
CHARGE MINNEAPOLIS POLICE OFFICERS FOR MURDER OF GEORGE FLOYD (2)
JUSTICE FOR GEORGE FLOYD (3)
GET THE OFFICERS CHARGED: JUSTICE FOR GEORGE FLOYD (4)

SENATOR BLUMENTHAL: GEORGE FLOYD: WE NEED NATIONWIDE POLICE DE-ESCALATION (5)
JUSTICE FOR BREONNA TAYLOR (1)
JUSTICE FOR BREONNA TAYLOR (2)
JUSTICE FOR BREONNA TAYLOR (3)
JUSTICE FOR BREONNA TAYLOR (4)
JUSTICE FOR BREONNA TAYLOR (5)
DISBARMENT OF GEORGE E. BARNHILL
JUSTICE FOR AHMUAD ARBERY (1)
DISTRICT ATTORNEY TOM DURDEN: JUSTICE FOR AHMAUD ARBERY (2)
GOVERNOR BRIAN KEMP: JUSTICE FOR AHMAUD ARBERY (3)
DEFUND MPD
MANDATORY LIFE SENTENCE FOR POLICE BRUTALITY
JUSTICE FOR REGIS KORCHINSKI-PAQUET
JUSTICE FOR TONY MCDADE (1)
JUSTICE FOR TONY MCDADE (2)
JUSTICE FOR TONY MCDADE (3)
JUSTICE FOR JOAO PEDRO
SAVE INNOCENT JULIUS JONES FROM DEATH ROW
JUSTICE FOR BELLY MUJINGA
GOVERNOR KAY IVEY: FREE WILLIE SIMMONS
HANDS UP ACT
NATIONAL ACTION AGAINST POLICE BRUTALITY AND MURDER
ILLINOIS GOVERNOR: CORRECT WRONGFUL CONVICTION OF KYJUANZI HARRIS
JUSTICE FOR ALEJANDRO VARGAS MARTINEZ
CENSORSHIP OF POLICE BRUTALITY IN FRANCE
JUSTICE FOR SEAN REED
MAYOR JOE HOGSETT: JUSTICE FOR SEAN REED
JUSTICE FOR KENDRICK JOHNSON
JUSTICE FOR TAMIR RICE (1)
JUSTICE FOR TAMIR RICE (2)
FIRE RACIST CRIMINAL FROM THE NYPD
JUSTICE FOR JAMEE JOHNSON
JUSTICE FOR DARIUS STEWART (1)
JUSTICE FOR DARIUS STEWART (2)
ABOLISH PRISON LABOR
FREE SIYANDA MNGAZA
JUSTICE FOR CHRYSTUL KIZER (1)
JUSTICE FOR CHRYSTUL KIZER (2)
JUSTICE FOR ANDILE “BOBO” MCHUNU
FREE ERIC RIDDICK
JUSTICE FOR AMIYA BRAXTON
JUSTICE FOR EMERALD BLACK
JUSTICE FOR ELIJAH NICHOLS
JUSTICE FOR ZINEDINE KARABO GIOIA
RETRIAL FOR WRONGFUL CONVICTION OF ANGEL BUMPASS
SCOTLAND POLICE: INVESTIGATE THE DEATH OF SHEKU BAYOH IN POLICE CUSTODY
JUSTICE FOR JENNIFER JEFFLEY
FREE ALBERT WILSON
MADISON SOUTHERN HIGH SCHOOL: JUSTICE FOR MACIE
JUSTICE FOR AMARI BOONE
JUSTICE FOR CRYSTAL MASON
JUSTICE FOR RASHAD CUNNINGHAM
GOODWOOD MAGISTRATE COURT: JUSTICE FOR TAZNE VAN WYK
PORTLAND POLICE: JUSTICE FOR TETE GULLEY
DROP CHARGES ON MARSHAE JONES & CHARGE THE SHOOTER OF HER & HER UNBORN BABY
TEMPLE POLICE DEPARTMENT: JUSTICE FOR MICHAEL DEAN 
STAND WITH #BLM
MOVEMENT4BLACKLIVES
PHOENIX POLICE DEPARTMENT: JUSTICE FOR DION JOHNSON
FIRE RON FREEMAN
MANCHESTER POLICE: JUSTICE FOR SHUKRI ABDI
DISTRICT ATTORNEY JIM WARD: JAIL TIME FOR DYLAN MOTA AND JACOB ROBLES
NSW POLICE: MANDATE THE POLICE FORCE ACADEMIES TO TAKE RACIAL BIAS TEST
JUNK THE ANTI-TERRORISM BILL AND UPHOLD HUMAN RIGHTS
NIGERIA POLICE FORCE: JUSTICE FOR YOUNG UWA
SCHOOLS MUST SPEAK UP NOW
SEATTLE POLICE: ARREST JARED CAMPBELL (1)
TERMINATE JARED CAMPBELL (2)
POLICE DE-ESCALATION TRAINING
PARDON CRYSTAL MASON IMPRISONED FOR VOTING.
JUSTICE FOR CAMERON GREEN
UNITED NATIONS: BAN THE USE OF INHUMANE RUBBER BULLETS (1)
UN AND US GOVERNMENT: BAN THE USE OF RUBBER BULLETS (2)
STOP USING ICE TO POISON IMMIGRANTS
THE TRAYVON MARTIN LAW – STOP THIS FROM HAPPENING AGAIN
COOKS COUNTY ILLINOIS POLICE: FREE CHAFFIN DARNEL Y
SUPPORT FORMER BUFFALOE POLICE OFFICER CARIOL HORNE TO RECEIVE HER PENSION
IMPROVE WORKING CONDITIONS FOR BLACK PEOPLE IN ITALY
DEFUND DALLAS POLICE DEPARTMENT AND INVEST IN THE LARGER DALLAS COMMUNITY
JUSTICE FOR BRITTANY CHRISHAWN WILLIAMS
RICHMOND CITY COUNCIL & MAYOR STONEY: MARCUS ALERT & CIVILIAN OVERSIGHT OF RPD
JUSTICE FOR QUENTIN SUTTLES
SAVE INNOCENT KENNETH REAMS FROM DEATH ROW
KING COUNTY POLICE OFFICERS GUILD: REQUIRE DASH AND BODY CAMERAS
DEFUND THE POLICE
JUSTICE FOR JAMES SCURLOCK (1)
JUSTICE FOR JAMES SCURLOCK (2)
CLASSIFY WHITE SUPREMACISTS AS TERRORISTS

JUSTICE FOR DAVID MCATEE
NO POLICE PRESENCE AT TACOMA BLM PROTEST
DEFUND SDPD
FIRE LAPD CHIEF MICHAEL MOORE
MAKE WASHINGTON STATE POLICE ACCOUNTABLE FOR POLICE BRUTALITY
FIRE OFFICER CAMILLE STEPHENSON
STOP ILLEGAL EXPORT OF RIOTING EQUIPMENT
JUSTICE FOR SHELLEY FREY
JUSTICE FOR ASHTON DICKSON
BAN/RESTRICT TEARGAS
KNOCK DOWN SLAVE MARKET CENTER
FREE ANTHONY WITT
JUSTICE FOR SANDRA BLAND
PROTECT UK BLACK TRANS WOMEN
REJECT TRUMP’S VIOLENCE TOWARDS PROTESTORS
MAKE POLICE BRUTALITY ILLEGAL
FIRE AUSTIN CHIEF POLICE
JUSTICE FOR BRAD LEVI
JUSTICE FOR JONAS JOSEPH
JUSTICE FOR DOMINIQUE CLAYTON
JUSTICE FOR ANDERSON ARBOLEDA
FREE CURTIS PRICE
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                                                                                                                                                                                                                                            DONATIONS:

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                            From reading various sources of information, it is advised to not donate to change.org, as it is a private corporation and none of the funds go towards the organizations or people that have put the petitions together. Of course, continue to sign the petitions, but please take the time to read their FAQ regarding donations.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                            Here is a list of recommended websites via blacklivesmatters:
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                                                                                                                                                                                                                                            VICTIMS:

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                            GEORGE FLOYD MEMORIAL FUND
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                            GEORGE FLOYD’S SISTERS FUND
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                            GEORGE FLOYD’S DAUGHTERS FUND
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                            BREONNA TAYLOR FUND
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                            AHMAUD ARBERY FUND
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                            REGIS KORCHINSKI FUND
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                            JAMEE JOHNSON FUND
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                            DESTINY HARRISON FUNERAL FUND
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                            ERIC ROSALIA FUND

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                            BELLY MUJINGA FUND
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                            DION JOHNSON FUND
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                            AARON JAMES FUND
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                            TONY MCDADE FUND
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                            HEALING FOR DARNELLA
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                            DESTINY’S DREAM SCHOLARSHIP
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                            JAMES SCURLOCK FUND
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                            SUPPORT FOR LESLIE FUND
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                            TREVER BELLE FUND
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                            TAMPA BAY COMMUNITY SUPPORT
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                            BRAD LEVI AYALA FUND
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                            ALAJUNAYE DAVIS FUND
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                            SAID JOQUIN FUND
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                            DAVID MCATEE FUND
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                            ITALIA KELLEY FUND
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                                                                                                                                                                                                                                            * PROTESTORS *

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                            BALI FUNDS BY STATE
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                            TAMPA BAY COMMUNITY SUPPORT
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                            SPLIT DONATION TO 37 BAIL FUNDS
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                            NATIONAL BAIL FUND NETWORK
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                            BAIL FUND GOOGLE DOC
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                            BAIL FUND TWITTER THREAD
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                            GAS MASK FUND
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                            UNICORN RIOT FUND
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                            MESSIAH YOUNG AND TANIYA PILGRIM
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                            EZEQUIEL VALDERAS BAIL FUND
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                            BLM FRONTLINE FUND
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                            FUND PROTESTORS IN THE UK
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                            SUPPLIES FOR DC PROTESTORS
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                            VENMO: FEMME EMPOWERMENT PROJECT
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                                                                                                                                                                                                                                            * BLACK OWNED BUSINESSES *

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                            BLACK OWNED BUSINESSES THREAD
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                            BLACK OWNED BUSINESSES ATLANTA
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                            BURGERIM DALLAS TEXAS
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                            EMW WOMEN’S

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                              * EMW is the ONLY abortion clinic in Kentucky and is 1 OF THE 6 black owned clinics in the country.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                              REBUILD SCORES SPORTS BAR FUND
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                              REBUILD SACDELUX CONSIGNMENT STORE FUND
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                              HELP TRIO THRIVE
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                              ATLANTA BLACK OWNED BUSINESS RELIEF
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                              REBUILD GUNS & ROSES BOUTIQUE FUND
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                              SOMALI OWNED BUSINESSES
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                              REBUILD SHOE MOUNTAIN FUND
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                              REBUILD THE BLOCK FUND
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                              MINNEAPOLIS BLACK OWNED BUSINESSES
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                              LONG BEACH BLACK OWNED BUSINESSES
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                                                                                                                                                                                                                                              * ORGANIZATIONS *

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                              Reclaim The Block
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                              North Star Health Collective
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                              NAACP Legal Defense Fund
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                              Black Visions Collective
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                              Black Disability Coalition
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                              The Marshall Project
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                              ACLU
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                              Campaign Zero
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                              Advancement Project
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                                                                                                                                                                                                                                              * IMPORTANT PLACES *

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                              BLM FUND
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                              BLM LA FUND

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                              SMALL BUSINESSES REBUILD
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                              BAY AREA BLACK BUSINESSES FUND
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                              LOVELAND THERAPY FUND
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                              BLACK TRANS WOMEN FUND
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                              NATIONAL POLICE ACCOUNTABILITY PROJECT
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                              CHANGE THE NYPD
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                              LAKE STREET CLEANUP
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                              UNTIL FREEDOM
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                              REBUILD NATIVE AMERICAN YOUTH CENTER
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                              REBUILD VIETNAMESE RESTAURANT FUND
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                              CAMBODIA TOWN RELIEF FUND
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                              REBUILD JOY’S BEAUTY SALON FUND
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                              LOCAL RICHMOND BUSINESSES (VA)
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                              FORDHAM CLEANUP FUND
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                              REDISTRIBUTION TO BLACK CENTERED GROUPS
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                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    Happy 94th Birthday Marilyn!

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    Today is a very special day, it’s Marilyn’s Birthday! Can you believe that if she were still alive,  Marilyn would have been turning 94 years old today – just two months younger than the Queen herself! With each year I always try and write a special post about this amazing woman, who has helped me so much and achieved more than anyone could have imagined in her 36 years. Therefore, I decided to write 94 facts about the Birthday Girl – some you may know, some you may not, all in the hope that genuine things will be learnt and the real Marilyn will be more understood and appreciated.

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                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    1.  Stood at a height of 5’5½”

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    2.  Born in the charity ward of the Los Angeles County Hospital at 9:30 AM on June 1st 1926.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    3.  Married three times;

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    – Jim Dougherty: (June 19th 1942 – September 13th 1946)
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    – Joe Dimaggio: (January 14th 1954 – 31st October 1955) (Temporary divorce granted on October 27th 1954)
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    – Arthur Miller: (June 29th 1956 – January 20th 1961).

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    4. Suffered two confirmed miscarriages; an ectopic pregnancy on August 1st 1957 and miscarriage in December 16th 1958.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    5. Suffered with endometriosis very badly, so much so that she had a clause in her contract which stated she would be unable to work whilst menstruating.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    6. Starred in 30 films – her last being uncompleted.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    7. Favourite of her own performances was as Angela Phinlay in The Asphalt Jungle (1950)

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    8. Winner of three Golden Globes; two for World Film Favourite – Female in 1954 and 1962 and one for Best Actress in a Motion Picture – Comedy or Musical for her performance as Sugar Kane in Some Like It Hot (1959) in 1960.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    9. Her idol was the first Platinum Blonde Bombshell, Jean Harlow.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    10. Amassed a collection of over 400 books in her library, ranging from Russian Literature to Psychology.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    11. Favourite perfume was Chanel No.5

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    12. Had two half siblings; Robert “Jackie” Baker (1918 – 1933) and Bernice Miracle (1919) – the former she would never have the chance to meet and Bernice was not informed about Marilyn until she was 19 years old.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    13. Former Actor and 20th Century Fox Studio Executive, Ben Lyon created the name Marilyn Monroe in December 1946 – Marilyn after fellow Actress, Marilyn Miller and Monroe after Marilyn’s mother’s maiden name. Ironically enough, Ben starred with Jean Harlow, in her breakout movie, Hell’s Angels (1930).

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    14. Legally changed her name to Marilyn Monroe ten years later, on February 23rd 1956.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    15. Attended The Actors Studio.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    16. Third woman to start her own Film Production Company – the first being Lois Weber in 1917 and the second being Mary Pickford in 1919.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    17. First had her hair bleached in January 1946 at the Frank & Joseph Salon by Beautician Sylvia Barnhart, originally intended for a Shampoo Advert.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    18. Contrary to popular belief, she was technically a natural blonde, not a redhead or brunette. She was born with platinum hair and was very fair until just before her teen years. Her sister described her with having dark blonde hair upon their first meeting in 1944.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    19. Another myth debunked – she had blue eyes, not brown.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    20. Was one of the few women in the 1950s to use weights when exercising.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    21. Wore jeans before it was considered acceptable for women.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    22. Her famous mole was real – albeit skin coloured, so she emphasized it using a brown eye pencil.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    23. Was a Step-Mother in two of her three marriages to three children – Joe Dimaggio Jr. and Bobby and Jane Miller.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    24. Found out she landed the lead role in Gentlemen Prefer Blondes (1953) on her 26th Birthday.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    25. Another huge myth dispelled – only actually met President Kennedy four times from 1961 – 1962. Three of them were at public events, with the last being her performance at Madison Square Garden. One of them was at Bing Crosby’s Palm Spring house with various people, so at most (which again, is very unlikely) they had a one night stand – nothing more and nothing less.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    26. Was the first Playboy Cover Girl, although she did not actually pose for them, nor give permission for them to be used. Hugh Hefner bought the photograph from a Chicago Calendar Company for $500 and the two never met.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    27. Speaking of Playboy, the photo was taken by Photographer Tom Kelley on May 27th 1951 and Marilyn made a total of $50 for the photo shoot. The most famous photo then went on to cause a national sensation after being sold to the Calendar Baumgarth Company and became known as, “Golden Dreams“.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    28. In 1955 it was estimated that over four million copies of the Calendar had been sold.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    29. Favourite singers were Frank Sinatra and Ella Fitzgerald. 

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    30. Attended the Academy Awards Ceremony only once on March 29th 1951 and presented the award for “Best Sound Recording” to Thomas Moulton for All About Eve (1951) which she also starred in.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    31. Performed ten shows over four days to over 100,000 soldiers and marines in Korea in February 1954 – she actually ended up catching pneumonia because it was so cold.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    32. Was one of the few Stars who had Director Approval in their Contracts. Some of the names included were, John Huston, Elia Kazan, Alfred Hitchcock, George Stevens, William Wyler, Joshua Logan and Sir Carol Reed.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    33. Was pregnant during the filming of Some Like It Hot (1959) filming finished on November 7th 1958 and she miscarried the following month on December 16th.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    34. Featured on the cover of LIFE Magazine seven times during her lifetime;

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    – April 7th 1952
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    – May 25th 1953
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    – July 8th 1957 (International Edition)
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    – April 20th 1959
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    – November 9th 1959
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    – August 15th 1960
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    – June 22nd 1962

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    35. Favourite bevarage was Dom Perignon 1953 Champagne.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    36. By the time of her death, her films had grossed over $200 million, when adjusted for inflation that is the equivalent of $2 billion in 2019.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    37. Designer, William Travilla dressed Marilyn for seven of her films, two (*) of them received Oscar Nominations in, “Best Costume/Design, Color“;

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    Monkey Business (1952)
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    Gentlemen Prefer Blondes (1953)
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    How To Marry A Millionaire (1953) *
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    River Of No Return (1954)
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    There’s No Business Like Show Business (1954) *
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    The Seven Year Itch (1955)
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    Bus Stop (1956)

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    38. Spent 21 months of her childhood at the Los Angeles Orphanage, from September 13th 1935 until June 7th 1937.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    39. Was one of the first Stars to speak out about child abuse, with her story appearing in movie magazines as early as 1954.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    40. Fostered by her grandmother’s neighbours, Ida and Albert Bolender, for the first seven years of her life.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    41. Lived in England for four months, during the period of filming for The Prince and The Showgirl (1957) from July 14th 1956 – November 20th 1956.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    42. Her Production Company, Marilyn Monroe Productions produced only one film, The Prince and The Showgirl (1957) based on Terrance Rattigan’s play, The Sleeping Prince.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    43. Was photographed by Gene Kornman on February 25th 1952 wearing a potato sack dress. This was after being criticized by the press for her outfit choice, a month earlier, at The Henrietta Awards in January 1952. A journalist wrote that Marilyn was “insignificant and vulgar“and “even in a potato bag, it would have been more elegant. Ironically enough, this was the second time Marilyn had donned a potato sack dress, the first was photographed by Earl Theisen and appeared in LOOK Magazine in October 1951 and Filmland Magazine in April 1952.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    44. Was a huge supporter of LGBT+ rights, saying the following quote about fellow actor and friend, Montgomery Clift to journalist W.J. Weatherby in 1960,

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    “I was remembering Monty Clift. People who aren’t fit to open the door for him sneer at his homosexuality. What do they know about it? Labels–people love putting labels on each other. Then they feel safe. People tried to make me into a lesbian. I laughed. No sex is wrong if there’s love in it.”

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    45. Her measurements were listed as the following by her Dressmakers; 35-22-35 and 36-24-24 by The Blue Book  Modelling Agency. For the majority of her life she weighed between 117-120 pounds, with her weight fluctuating around 15 pounds, during and after her pregnancies (1957-1960), although her waist never ventured past 28.5 inches and her dress size today would be a UK Size 6-8 and a US Size 2-4 as she was a vintage Size 12.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    46. Her famous white halter dress from The Seven Year Itch (1955) sold for $4.6 million ($5.6 million including auction fees) on June 18th 2011, which was owned by Debbie Reynolds. The “Happy Birthday Mr. President Dress” originally held the record for the most expensive dress, when it was sold on October 27th 1999 for $1.26 million. It then went on to be resold for $4.8 million on November 17th 2016, thus regaining it’s original achievement.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    47. Was discovered by Photographer, David Conover, whilst working in The Radio Plane Munitions Factory in the Fall of 1944 or Spring of 1945, depending on sources.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    48. Now known as the, “Me Too” movement, Marilyn was one of the first Stars to speak out on the, “Hollywood Wolves” in a 1953 article for Motion Picture Magazine entitled, “Wolves I Have Known”. The most famous incident being with the Head of Columbia Studios, Harry Cohn, who requested Marilyn join him on his yacht for a weekend away in Catalina Island. Marilyn asked if his wife would be joining them, which, as you can imagine – did not go down well and her contract was not renewed with the Studio. Marilyn made only one film with Columbia during her six month contract, this being Ladies Of The Chorus (1948) which was shot in just ten days!

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    49. Loved animals dearly and adopted a variety of pets over the years. These included a basset hound called Hugo and parakeets, Clyde, Bobo and Butch with Husband Arthur Miller.  A number of cats including a persian breed called Mitsou in 1955 and Sugar Finney in 1959. Her most famous pet was gifted to her in March or April of 1961 by friend, Frank Sinatra, a little white maltese named Maf. His full name was Mafia Honey, as a humorous reference to Sinatra’s alleged connections to the Mob. After Marilyn’s death, Maf went to live with Frank Sinatra’s secretary, Gloria Lovell.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    50. The book she was reading at the time of her death was Harper Lee’s, To Kill A Mocking Bird.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    51. One of the movies she starred in was nominated for the Academy Award for Best Picture and won, this being All About Eve (1950) at The 23rd Academy Awards on March 29th 1951. It ended up being nominated for 14 Oscars, a record at the time and has only been matched by Titanic (1997) and La La Land (2016).

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    52. Her first magazine cover was photographed by Andre de Dienes in December 1945 for Family Circle, released on April 26th 1946.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    53. Joined The William Morris Agency on December 7th 1948.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    54. Was right handed, not left as often believed.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    55. Third Husband Arthur Miller wrote the screenplay for Marilyn’s last completed film, The Misfits (1961) which was originally written as a short story for Esquire Magazine in 1957. After the tragic ectopic pregnancy Marilyn endured in August of 1957, friend and Photographer, Sam Shaw suggested to Miller he alter his short story specifically for her. Ironically the making of this film culminated in their divorce and Marilyn stating,

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    “He could have written me anything and he comes up with this. If that’s what he thinks of me then I’m not for him and he’s not for me.”

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    56. Was Author, Truman Capote’s original choice for the role of Holly Golightly in Breakfast At Tiffany’s (1961) however, she was advised to turn it down by her Acting Coach, Paula Strasberg, who did not think the role of a prostitute would be good for her image. Writer George Axelrod, who wrote the Screenplay for Bus Stop (1956) and the play, The Seven Year Itch, ironically ended up being the Screenwriter for this movie.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    Capote said this regarding Marilyn,

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    “I had seen her in a film and thought she would be perfect for the part. Holly had to have something touching about her . . . unfinished. Marilyn had that.”

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    57. Second Husband Joe Dimaggio had The Parisian Florists deliver red roses on Marilyn’s grave twice a week, for twenty years, from August 1962 until September 1982. Marilyn had told him how William Powell used to do this for Jean Harlow after her death and he reportedly vowed to do the same after their Wedding Ceremony. After the 20 years he then donated to a children’s charity, as he thought it would be a nice way to honour her memory. They also created the flower arrangements for her casket at her funeral.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    58. The following five Directors directed Marilyn in more than one movie;

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    – John Huston; The Asphalt Jungle (1950) and The Misfits (1961)
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    – Richard Sale;  A Ticket To Tomahawk (1950) and Let’s Make It Legal (1951)
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    – Howard Hawks; Monkey Business (1952) and Gentlemen Prefer Blondes (1953)
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    – Billy Wilder; The Seven Year Itch (1955) and Some Like It Hot (1959)
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    – George Cukor; Let’s Make Love (1960) and Something’s Got To Give (1962)

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    59. Was an illegitimate child, which unfortunately was attached with a lot of stigma in the 1920s. Her mother, Gladys, listed her then husband Edward Mortenson on the Birth Certificate, although it is commonly accepted that her real father was Charles Stanley Gifford, as Gladys left Edward on May 26th 1925. Gladys had an affair with him, which ended when she announced her pregnancy and he never acknowledged or met Marilyn, although she tried multiple times over the years to speak with him. 

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    60. Stayed in a number of foster homes during her childhood,

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    – George and Emma Atkinson; February 1934 – September 1934
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    – Enid and Sam Knebelcamp; Fall of 1934
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    – Harvey and Elsie Giffen; January 1935 – March 1935
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    – Grace and “Doc” Goddard; April 1935 – September 1935 and June 1937 – November 1937 and end of 1940 – February 1942
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    – Ida Martin; November 1937 – August 1938
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    – “Aunt Ana” Lower; August 1938  – End of 1940 and February 1942 

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    61. Had her hand and footprints immortalized in cement at Graumans Chinese Theatre on June 26th 1953, with Gentlemen Prefer Blondes (1953) co-star, Jane Russell. Marilyn would place a rhinestone in the dot of the letter “i” as a reference to her character, “Lorelei Lee” but it was sadly stolen. This was an incredibly special moment for her, as she often talked about placing her hands and feet in the many prints there, when she spent her weekends at the Theatre as a child, especially in 1933 and 1934.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    “When I was younger, I used to go to Grauman’s Chinese Theatre and try to fit my foot in the prints in the cement there. And I’d say “Oh, oh, my foots too big. I guess that’s out.” I did have a funny feeling later when I finally put my foot down into that wet cement, I sure knew what it really meant to me, anything’s possible, almost.”

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    62. The famous gold lamé dress worn in Gentlemen Prefer Blondes (1953) and designed by William Travilla, was deemed too risqué by the censors. Unfortunately for fans, this meant that the musical number, “Down Boy” was cut from the film and we only glimpse a few seconds of the dress from behind, on screen.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    63. Due to the censors, the original, “Diamond’s Are A Girl’s Best Friend” costume was changed to the now iconic pink dress with black bow. Originally it was to be a diamond encrusted two piece, which was extremely daring for the then Motion Picture Hays Code.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    64. Loved Erno Lazlo Skin Cream, Vaseline and Nivea Moisturizer.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    65. Had she completed Something’s Got To Give (1962), Marilyn would have been the first Star in a major Motion Picture to appear nude on film. As she passed before it was completed the achievement went to fellow Blonde Bombshell, Jayne Mansfield in, Promises! Promises (1963).

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    66. Met Queen Elizabeth II in England at the Empire Theater in Leicester Square whilst attending the Premiere of, The Battle Of The River Plate on October 29th 1956.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    67. The Misfits (1961) was both Marilyn and Clark Gable’s last completed films. Clark died 12 days after filming finished, on November 16th 1960. The film was released on Clark’s would be 60th Birthday, February 1st 1961 and Marilyn passed 18 months later.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    68. As Marilyn died before the completion of Something’s Got To Give (1962) it ended up being remade with Doris Day and James Garner, entitled, Move Over Darling! (1963). The film was originally intended to be a remake of, My Favourite Wife (1940) which starred Cary Grant.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    69. Signed a recording contract with RCA Records on September 1st 1953. One of her songs from River of No Return (1954) entitled, “File My Claim” sold 75,000 copies in its first three weeks of release.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    70. Was admitted to the Payne Whitney Psychiatric Clinic on February 10th 1961 by her then Psychiatrist, Marianne Kris. Originally thought to be for rest and rehabilitation, following her divorce from Arthur Miller and the strain of filming The Misfits. However, Marilyn was placed on the security ring and held against her will. Thankfully, she was able to contact ex Husband, Joe Dimaggio, who stated he would, “Take the hospital apart brick by brick” if she was not released and after three days of emotional trauma, she left.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    71. Visited the following Countries;

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    – Canada – (July – August 1953)
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    – Japan (February 1954)
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    – Korea (Feburary 1954)
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    – England (July – November 1956)
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    – Jamaica (January 1957)
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    – Mexico (February 1962)

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    72. Purchased her only home, 12305 Fifth Helena Drive on February 8th 1962, where she would tragically pass just under 6 months later.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    73. The home had the following tile located on the front paving entrance saying, “cursum perficio” meaning, “my journey ends here.” The title is still there to this day.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    74. Her final interview was published in LIFE Magazine on August 3rd 1962 and was written by Richard Meryman.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    75. Aside from her millions of fans, had a staunch group of supporters affectionately known as, “The Monroe Six” who followed Marilyn around New York during her time there. Their nickname for Marilyn was, “Mazzie” and they became so acquainted that Marilyn actually once invited them for a picnic at her home.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    76. First married at just sixteen years old, this was to avoid returning to the Orphanage she had spent almost two years in as a child.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    77. Supported numerous charity events, most famously riding a pink elephant in Madison Square Garden, to support the Arthritis and Rheumatic Affections Association on March 30th 1955.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    78. Left 25% of her Estate to her then Psychiatrist, Marianne Kris and 75% to mentor and friend, Lee Strasberg. For reference, her Will was last updated on January 1961 – a month before she entered the Payne Whitney Hospital on the advice of Marianne Kris.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    79. At the time of it’s release, The Misfits (1961) turned out to be the most expensive black and white movie ever made, costing a budget of $4 million dollars.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    80. The Premiere of The Seven Year Itch was held on her 29th Birthday, on June 1st 1955, she attended with ex Husband, Joe Dimaggio.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    81. Laid to rest at Westwood Village Memorial Park Cemetery on August 8th 1962 at 1:00 PM, with friend and mentor Lee Strasberg delivering the Eulogy. 

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    82. Although so often associated with diamonds, actually wasn’t that fond of jewellery stating, “People always ask me if I believe diamonds are a girl’s best friend. Frankly, I don’t.” 

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    83. Spent her 36th Birthday filming Something’s Got To Give (1962) and then attending a Charity Event for muscular dystrophy at the Chavez Ravin Dodger Stadium, which also happened to be her last public appearance.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    84. Whilst recovering in hospital from an appendectomy in April 1952, Marilyn asked long time Makeup Artist and friend, Allan “Whitey” Snyder to do her makeup, should she pass before him. She gave him a gold money clip with the inscription, “Whitey Dear, while I’m still warm, Marilyn” and he did fulfill this promise to her.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    85. Converted to Judaism for third husband, Arthur Miller on July 1st 1956.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    86. Despite appearing in 30 films, she only actually dies in one, that being her breakout movie, Niagara (1953) where her character Rose Loomis, is strangled by her Husband George, played by Joseph Cotten.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    87. Moved to New York City in 1955 and attended The Actors Studio, after breaking her Film Contract with 20th Century Fox. This was for a number of reasons, mainly years of low pay, unsatisfactory scripts and lack of creative control. A new contract would finally be reinstated on December 31st.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    88. Repurchased a white Baby Grand Piano that her mother, Gladys, owned during their time living together in 1933. After Marilyn passed it would then be sold at the Christies Auction of her Estate in 1999 to none other than, Mariah Carey for $632,500.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    89. Wore long hair pieces in River of No Return (1954) and a medium length wig in The Misfits (1961). The first I can only assume was due to the time period and setting of a Western and the second was due to the bleach damage her hair had suffered. After the filming in 1960, she wore the wig a couple of times in public events and then reverted back to her normal hair.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    90. Like all students, it was tradition to perform in front of each other in The Actors Studio and on February 17th 1955, Marilyn acted out a scene from “Anna Christie” with Maureen Stapleton. Although it was an unwritten rule that students were not meant to applaud one another, an eruption of cheers and clapping happened after Marilyn had finished.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    “Everybody who saw that says that it was not only the best work Marilyn ever did, it was some of the best work ever seen at Studio, and certainly the best interpretation of Anna Christie anybody ever saw. She achieved real greatness in that scene.”

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    – Actor Ellen Burstyn, on recalling Marilyn’s performance.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    91. Used the pseudonym, “Zelda Zonk“, when trying to remain incognito.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    92. Marilyn’s mother, Gladys Baker, suffered from Paranoid Schizophrenia and after various stays in institutions, was declared insane on January 15th 1935, when Marilyn was just 8 years old. After 10 years she was released and managed to retain various cleaning jobs and had developed an intense interest in Christian Science. However, by 1951 she was back in various institutions and would stay in the Rockhaven Sanitarium until 1967. Even after death, Marilyn continued to cover her mother’s care payments and Gladys would go on to outlive her for 22 years.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    93. Favourite photograph of herself was taken by Cecil Beaton on February 22nd 1956.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    94. Last professional photos were taken by Bert Stern, famously known as “The Last Sitting” for Vogue Magazine on June 23rd, July 10th and 12th 1962. Allan Grant took the LIFE Magazine interview pictures in her home, on July 4th and 9th 1962. Whilst George Barris took his photos for Cosmopolitan Magazine, the previous weekend on the 29th and 30th of June, until July 1st 1962.
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                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    Veronica: The Autobiography of Veronica Lake; Book Review.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    When most people hear the name, “Veronica Lake” usually one of three things comes to mind – that incredible peek-a-boo hair, the Film Noir’s with Alan Ladd or possibly Kim Basigner playing a Miss Lake lookalike in L.A. Confidential (1997) – fun fact, she won the Best Supporting Actress Oscar for that role. Although, with Veronica’s heyday being well over half a century old, that’s sadly usually as far as it goes.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    However, with the Classic Hollywood Era being hugely timeless and forever coming back into fashion, the genre is becoming less of a niché subject and more Stars are on the public radar. If you’re a long time Vintage Lover like myself, you’ll be aware that unfortunately, a lot of our favourites don’t have many books written about them, or if they do, they’ve been out of print for a number of years and can be hard to find, or very expensive. Therefore, when I came across the news that Dean Street Press were publishing a reprint of Veronica’s Autobiography, which was first released in 1969, I was absolutely ecstatic! As most who know me are probably aware of my love for Blonde Bombshells, it may not be as well known that Veronica is my other favourite, after Marilyn.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    There have only been two books published on Veronica, which I must add, astounds me – and one of them is this one which was co-written by ghost writer Donald Bain, who sadly passed away in October of 2017. The other is by Jeff Lenburg and I am fortunate enough to have both. However, Lenburg’s book is fairly controversial as he takes a lot of his information from Veronica’s mother, who claims a lot of detrimental things about her daughter – yet was estranged from her for many, many years. I think it’s actually being reprinted this summer and I will read it again, but would definitely advise new fans to stick to Veronica’s own words.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    The republished version of Veronica’s Autobiography features a new cover with a stunning publicity photo of her in Ramrod (1947) which was directed by her then Husband, André de Toth. The book is a shiny paperback, with a non crease format, so even when you’ve finished reading, it will be in great condition and can take pride of place on your bookshelf! At 215 pages and 27 chapters, it’s not a huge length, but definitely a substantial read and full of personal anecdotes from the Golden Age of Hollywood.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    Broadcaster and writer, Eddie Muller adds a new Introduction and his following words really stuck with me, their relevancy still to this day does not go unnoticed,

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    I’ll point out instead that while the public has granted Sterling Hayden, a legendary boozer and hash-head, a legacy as a heroic, larger-than-life iconoclast, it has branded Lake’s life after Hollywood a steady downward spiral of abasement, worthy of only pity. Blame a cultural double standard that applauds reckless rebellion in men but shames it in women.”

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    As the chapters do not have titles, I’ve decided to write down a snippet of information which sums up the pivotal points and various timelines in each section.

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                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    Chapter 1:

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    – Starts in 1938 and traces Veronica’s move to Hollywood with her mother, step-father and cousin on the 4th of July. Veronica enrolls in the Bliss Hayden School of Acting and has her first role in a movie as an extra in RKO’s Sorority House (1939).

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    Chapter 2:

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    – Veronica’s signature peek-a-boo hairstyle is unintentionally created on the set of Forty Little Mothers (1940) by Director, Busby Berkeley who stated, “I still say let it fall. It distinguishes her from the rest”.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    Chapter 3:

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    – Director, Freddie Wilcox sets up Veronica’s first Screen Test, whilst at home her step-father suffers a collapsed lung.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    Chapter 4:

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    – Veronica joins the iconic William Morris Agency and recounts her knowledge of the infamous Hollywood Casting Couch and how she turned away from the many advances.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    Chapter 5:

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    – Veronica meets her first husband, John Detlie and has her named changed by Producer, Arthur Hornblow Jr., who, after a second Screen Test, decides to cast her as Sally Vaughn in her breakout movie, I Wanted Wings (1941).

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    Chapter 6:

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    – Focuses on the location filming of I Wanted Wings (1941) from August 26th 1940 in San Antonio, Texas.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    Chapter 7:

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    – Continues filming in Hollywood for I Wanted Wings (1941) and elopes to marry her first husband, John Detlie.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    Chapter 8:

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    – Veronica discusses the first 8 years of her childhood and her move to Florida in her teen years and the two schools she attended in Montreal and Miami.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    Chapter 9:

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    – Recounts various appearances in Miami Beauty Pageants as a teenager.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    Chapter 10:

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    – Returns to 1941 with the release of I Wanted Wings (1941) and focuses on the worldwide phenomenon of the famous hair. Also finishes with Director Preston Sturges hiring Veronica for the role of The Girl in Sullivan’s Travels (1941).

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    Chapter 11:

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    Veronica shares the news of her first pregnancy with her mother and how her third trimester would coincide with the physical demands of filming Sullivan’s Travels (1941).

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    Chapter 12:

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    – Covers the filming of Sullivan’s Travels (1941) from May 12th 1941 and the revelation of Veronica’s pregnancy. It’s simply incredible when watching the film all these years later to come to the realization that she was between six to eight months pregnant!

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    Chapter 13:

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    – The filming of This Gun For Hire (1942) and The Glass Key (1942).

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    Chapter 14:

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    – The filming of I Married A Witch (1942), So Proudly We Hail! (1943) and The Hour Before The Dawn (1944). Veronica also discusses the deterioration of her marriage and the tragic loss of her second baby, Anthony, who died a week after being born two months prematurely.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    Chapter 15:

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    – Veronica divorces John and retells various anecdotes of the Hollywood Lifestyle in it’s heyday in the 1940s.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    Chapter 16:

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    – Veronica discusses the filming of Star Spangled Rhythm (1942) and also her dating history during this period. She shares some fascinating stories of various celebrity anecdotes which include such Stars as, Errol Flynn, Katharine Hepburn, Howard Hughes and Gary Cooper.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    Chapter 17:

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    – The filming of Bring On The Girls (1945), Duffy’s Tavern (1946) and Hold That Blonde! (1945). Veronica recalls marrying her second husband, Andre de Toth and shares a moving story from her visit to The White House in January 1945.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    Chapter 18:

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    – The filming of Miss Susie Slagles (1946), Out Of This World (1945), Ramrod (1946), The Blue Dahlia (1946), Saigon (1947) and The Sainted Sisters (1948). Veronica and Andre expand their family as she has her third baby, a boy named Michael. She also talks about her and Andre obtaining their Pilot Licenses and how the death of her step-dad deeply affected her.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    Chapter 19:

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    – Features a highly entertaining story of Veronica flying her plane, whilst carrying her forth child, in her fifth month of pregnancy. With her on board is her secretary Marge, who up until then had never flown before.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    Chapter 20:

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    – Veronica gives birth to her forth baby, a girl named Diana and talks about the turmoil of her relationship with her mother, who decided to sue her for, “lack of filial love and responsibility” and over $17,000.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    Chapter 21:

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    – The filming of Slattery’s Hurricane (1949) and Stronghold (1951). Veronica discusses her frustration with Andre’s prolific spending, which results in them filing for bankruptcy and ultimately, the deterioration of their marriage.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    Chapter 22:

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    – Veronica moves to New York in 1951 and continues her acting career through various television appearances and the stage. She enters her third marriage to husband, Joe McCarthy, which she admits was volatile from the start and they divorce after just four years, in September 1959.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    Chapter 23:

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    – Covers the years 1959 through to 1961. Veronica discusses her time taking a job as a cocktail waitress – which contrary to popular belief, she actually quite enjoyed. She also talks about the traumatic accident which resulted in a severely broken ankle, which caused her inability to act for two years.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    Chapter 24:

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    – Delves into her relationship with Andy Elickson, a Merchant Seaman, who she met during her time working in the Martha Washington Hotel and focuses on the period between 1961 and 1966. She also writes about a high note in her stage career; appearing in Best Foot Forward in 1963.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    Chapter 25:

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    – Veronica discusses her move to Miami from New York in 1966.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    Chapter 26:

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    – The filming of Footsteps In The Snow (1966) and Flesh Feast (1970) which was then known as Time Is Terror and was originally shot in 1967.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    Chapter 27:

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    – Ends in October 1967 with Veronica discussing her reading performance of The World of Carl Sandburg, which she describes as one of the, “finest moments” of her life.

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                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    Veronica’s words are full of honesty, she does not sugar-coat her flaws and her anecdotes convey a great sense of humbleness towards her career and lots of self criticism to her talent, the latter which saddens me. I’ve noticed many of the great Stars rarely seem to have any belief in themselves. If only they could see how loved and appreciated they truly are. However, her loyalty and generosity towards her close friends and even acquaintances does not go unnoticed. It’s refreshing to see her be able to share her own story, without various opinions and conspiracies that have grown over the years being included.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    Overall, there’s only two downsides that springs to mind. Firstly, as the book was originally published in 1969 and finishes at the end of 1967, we’re missing the six final years of her fascinating life and tragically nothing can be done to change this. Of course no one is at fault, it’s just a shame that those last years will remain mostly a mystery to us. It would have been wonderful to read about her time in England. Lastly, in the original edition, a number of pages featured very rare photos of Veronica throughout her years, including her own comments. Sadly, only a small version of the cover photo reappears at the end of the newly republished book. I’m assuming this is down to cost and or copyright, but it would be nice to see these rare treasures reappear in the latest edition for fans that are not fortunate enough to also own an original copy.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    Ultimately, Veronica always maintains her true self and comes across as not a Screen Icon, but just like one of us – albeit with some extraordinary Hollywood stories. She’s simply, and I mean this in the most complimentary way – a human being. It’s been almost a decade since I discovered Veronica, eight years in fact and I for one have not only became even more endeared to Miss Lake, but, I have also developed a warm space in my heart for my fellow 5’2″ little lady, Miss Connie/Ronni Keane.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    Lastly, a huge thank you to Dean Street Press for believing in the popularity of Veronica and so wonderfully reprinting hers and Donald Bain’s special words for us all to enjoy.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    For anyone who wants to see more of Veronica, I’ve amassed a fairly large archive of photos over the years which can be viewed on my blog devoted entirely to her; missveronicalakes.

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                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    Bésame Cosmetics Sleeping Beauty Collection.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    One of my absolute favourite Makeup Brands is the wonderful, Bésame Cosmetics which was founded by Gabriela Hernandez in 2004 and is primarily devoted to recreating authentic vintage makeup! As a true vintage girl myself, Bésame is basically a dream come true and is such a refreshing and unique concept in a 21st Century world. Also, all Bésame Cosmetics products are cruelty and gluten free as well as being PETA certified, which is very comforting to know.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    Not only do Bésame focus on recreating a variety of retro products from the 1910s to the 1970s, they have also collaborated with Disney on a number of Classic Film Collections; starting with Snow White and The Seven Dwarfs (1937) (sadly no longer available!) Mickey Mouse (1919) and Peter Pan’s Mermaid Lagoon (1953). Fast forward to now and the latest collaboration is to celebrate the 60th Anniversary of the eternal Sleeping Beauty (1959) which just so happens to be one of my favourites and features my most loved Disney Princess, (along with Cinderella!)

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    Each Disney Collection is intricately researched, with Bésame having rare access to the Disney Archives to recreate the famous colours from the film cells and tell the story as authentically as possible. With this particular collaboration, Gabriela incredibly recreated the famous Sleeping Beauty book, which features in the films famous opening sequence!

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    Although I dream of having all of the products, I sadly had to think with my head and not my heart and therefore purchased the following four items; 1959 Eyeshadow Palette, Locket Cream Rouge, Maleficent Lipstick and Briar Rose Blush Palette.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    The 1959 Eyeshadow Palette may quite possibly be the most beautiful one I have ever owned, I didn’t think the Urban Decay Game of Thrones Palette could lose it’s number one spot but, this has definitely taken prized position! Inspired by the Fairy Tale Book in the opening scene of the film, the palette consists of twenty – yes twenty (!) matte eyeshadows. The shades are authentically reproduced from Aurora, Maleficent and the three Fairies’ colour palette that is used in the movie. The product actually includes four real pages inside, which recreate the looks for you to emulate and a mirror is also included!

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    At £57 this is the most expensive Eyeshadow Palette I’ve ever bought, but I can say with all honesty that if you’re a Disney, Sleeping Beauty, Bésame fan or super makeup lover, it is one hundred percent worth it. The quality is incredible and the time, effort and attention to detail that has gone into making this is truly laudable and does not go unappreciated. This product is without doubt a collectors item and if you were willing to pay an extra £8, you could purchase it with a special display case – however, that option is sadly sold out!

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    Here are the names of each shade within the palette;

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    Aurora – Color Call Outs;

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    Iris, Eyes – Grey Blue 104
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    Lips with peasant costume – Grey Pink 109
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    Eyelids – Rose 105
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    Skin – Coral 102
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    Legs – Adobe 102
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    Lips with pink & blue dress – Blush 105
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    Hair – 89343
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    Brows – Dust 107
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    Crown, necklace – 89339
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    Blouse, peasant costume – White 106
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    Skirt, peasant costume – White 107
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    Pink dress – Beet 105
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    Blue Dress – Royal 106

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    Maleficant – Color Call Outs;

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    Lips and nails – 89396
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    Eyes – 89348
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    Eye shadow – 89349
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    Ball on staff  – 89350
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    Pleat of cape and sleeves – Plum 107
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    Skin – 89352
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    Staff – 89353

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    Within the collection their are three lipsticks available; Sleeping Beauty Pink – based on Aurora’s lip shade, Make It Blue Make It Pink – a blue lipstick which applies pink – clearly a nod to Aurora’s colour changing dress and Maleficent – which I purchased.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    As a red lipstick wearer I wanted to choose one that was closest to this colour and of course, that was Maleficent. Although most of us Disney fans associate red lipstick with the iconic evil fairy, the film cells actually show that her shade was more of a deep pink with a cool undertone, which I found really interesting! All three lipsticks retail for £20 and come in the stunning Sleeping Beauty pink packaging, as well as the 1940s vintage reproduction gold cases with the 1959 film logo. The finish is a semi matte satin, like all of Bésame’s products, which is faithful to the vintage era – although I would love a true matte, simply because I like my lipstick to not move all day. However, we can’t have it all and I do love the iconic shape of Bésame lipsticks, which helps create perfect precision and again is a nod to the vintage era.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    At only £15, the Locket Cream Rouge is a wonderful bargain and a true collectible that once again recreates the stunning Sleeping Beauty Book on the front and features a portrait of Princess Aurora on the back. The product is rose gold plated and features a magnetic closure which when opened, reveals a pink cream rouge. This can be worn on both the cheeks and lips and if you want to use the locket for an actual photo, the rouge can easily be removed. Therefore, not only do you get a stunning necklace like no other, but it also features a unique Sleeping Beauty product – such a must have!

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    The final item I purchased from the collection was the Briar Rose Blush Palette, which comes with two rouge shades and two highlighters for a total of £29. All four colours are once again thoroughly inspired by the exact colours used in Sleeping Beauty. The two lighter blush and highlight are worn by Aurora in the film and the two darker blush and highlight are Maleficent’s. Therefore, you can create a lighter day look with Princess Aurora and then vamp it up for a dramatic style with Maleficent’s. Or, if you’re feeling creative, you could even mix them all together! The compact also comes with a mirror inside which features forest artwork from the film and adds such beautiful detail, as well as the front image recreating an actual film cell used from the movie.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    Overall, it’s safe to say I am without a doubt blown away by this whole Collection and feel extremely fortunate to have been able to purchase four of the items. Furthermore, I also must note how with every special collaboration, Bésame creates their very own, “Bésame Bugle” which is inspired by a vintage newspaper. This particular one features all the behind the scenes information from the Sleeping Beauty film and the makeup products! It’s an absolutely stunning collectible itself and I will treasure it. Lastly, my only hope is as Cinderella’s 70th Anniversary is next year, I pray that a collection is released to celebrate this!

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    A big thank you to Bésame, Gabriela and Disney for creating such beautiful collectible products for us all!

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                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    57 Years Without Marilyn.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    Tonight marks 57 years since Marilyn left us – her body was found by her housekeeper in the early hours of August 5th and it was officially announced to the world that morning. Every year I try and write about Marilyn on both her Birthday and her Anniversary, each time I make sure to focus on one particular thing – to celebrate and appreciate her for the amazing person she truly was.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    So many people and society tend to view Marilyn as a victim, passed around from man to man and used throughout her lifetime. This both angers and frustrates not just me, but many fans, who have spent years taking the time to research legitimate sources and find out who Marilyn herself was. Often her death is viewed as a conspiracy fueled gossip loving debate, so much so that she ends up no longer seeming like a young woman anymore, but an object of fascination.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    It seems to me that it’s easier for people to believe in the distasteful lies and conspiracies that surround not just Marilyn, but many other celebrities and icons before and after her. People cannot comprehend someone as beautiful, talented and loved as her to have any demons or hardships. It almost seems like it’s frowned upon to listen to the doctors original death verdict – which was, “probable suicide” as depression can’t always be comprehended or accepted by others. It also doesn’t continue to sell hundreds of books and trashy articles like conspiracies and salacious stories do and sadly, that’s what so many seem to care more about. In the end Marilyn ends up being turned into a former shadow of her true self, which is just not acceptable to me and so many others – therefore, I will continue to try and dispel the lies and bring back her true character.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    Furthermore, Marilyn’s death does not define her – intended or accidental it is still and will always be a tragedy, but, it does not take away from her 36 years of life and the achievements she made during and after her lifetime.  Marilyn was a voice for the underdog, incredibly ahead of her time she defied gender stereotypes and was never afraid to be honest and speak out about taboo topics such as sexuality, abuse and the pay gap. She was also the third Actress to set up her own Film Production Company – Mary Pickford and Mabel Normand did so in 1916.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    Marilyn constantly tried to improve herself as a human and an artist, she suffered immensely for her creativity, always wanting to be the best actress she could become. She was very self conscious of her limited education and loved to read and learn about a variety of subjects – her library had over four hundred books on it’s shelves varying from Psychology to Russian Literature! She loved the simple things in life, such as walking around Brooklyn, caring for animals, listening to music and spending time with loved ones. Ultimately, this was the real Marilyn, the person that so often gets lost in the publicity of hearsay and money making headlines.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    I truly hope that whenever a person comes across Marilyn, they take a few moments to discover the real her, the person behind the Blonde Bombshell persona. It’s so easy to see a headliner or false image and believe an inaccurate presentation of a famous person. I may be a little biased, but I can honestly say that feelings aside, Marilyn was truly an incredible woman, brave, generous, kind and strong, someone who just wanted to make the world a little brighter. Plus, even if all of these ridiculous, continuously disproven myths miraculously ended up being true, it would not change my the amount of respect or adoration I have for her.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    So many associate sexual promiscuity, addiction and stupidity with Marilyn and honestly, it not only saddens me but I find it incredibly, infuriating. Firstly, even half a century later, the amount of sexism and double standards that still exist in our society is simply disgusting. Therefore, I’d like to touch on each one of these so called flaws and share the facts behind the assumptions.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    Did Marilyn have an affair? Yes, she did – with Actor Yves Montand during the making of Let’s Make Love in 1960 – not with the often noted, John F. Kennedy. In reality, they only met a less than juicy four times from 1960 and three of them were at public events. Yet as always, the woman is shamed and condemned – even if the hearsay comes about years after her death by people simply wanting to make some money. I would say that a huge amount of Stars in Hollywood had affairs during their careers, no judgement here, I’m just stating the facts. However, why is it Marilyn that is constantly criticized, judged and linked to every man in and out of Hollywood? In reality she spoke out multiple times about the peril of the, “Hollywood Wolves” and actually lost out on a contract renewal with Columbia Head Harry Cohn for turning down a proposition. Lastly, if she had slept with every single person that she’s been associated with, she’d never have had time to have such a successful career and three marriages.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    Was Marilyn an addict? Yes, she was addicted to prescription medications such as Chloral Hydrate and Nembutal, which she would take for her depression, crippling anxiety and insomnia.  Medical negligence was extremely high in the heyday of Hollywood and if you were famous and had problems, they could often be taken advantage of instead of resolved. Personally, I don’t know why being an addict gives others the right to condemn, judge, shame and insult someone suffering from this terrible sickness? If anything there should be compassion and understanding, we are all only human and the stigma needs to stop.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    Was Marilyn just a, “Dumb Blonde”? No, but for some bizarre reason to me, people seem to not be able to understand that an Actor is performing a role, the character you’re seeing on the screen is just that – a character. However, because Marilyn was able to create such a convincing persona, people could not accept that in reality, she loved to be in her capri pants, with no makeup on, sitting at home reading a good book. Even during her lifetime, her acting was usually only appreciated when she took on dramatic roles, such as in Bus Stop (1956) and The Misfits (1961). Honestly, I don’t know why a persons intelligence has any influence in how they should be viewed and treated by others and I actually think if Marilyn had been less intelligent, she would have been a lot happier.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    I think a lot of people forget that Marilyn was actually a real person, just like you and me, a human that graced us with her presence on this Earth. Someone as beautiful, wonderful and pure of heart like her really existed and with such a judgmental and prejudicial society like ours, it can sometimes be hard to accept this. Just because Marilyn’s no longer here in a physical presence, doesn’t mean she doesn’t deserve the same respect that we’d give to others. She gave a hell of a lot to this world in just a small amount of time, her contributions to Hollywood and for women are legendary and should be appreciated and shared.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    Wherever you are sweet Marilyn, I hope you feel the love and kind words so many of us only wish we could say to you. You’ve given so much happiness to millions of people, this girl especially and we truly love and appreciate you for being undoubtedly your true self.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    “But when you’re famous you kind of run into human nature in a raw kind of way. It stirs up envy, fame does. People you run into feel that, well, who is she who does she think she is, Marilyn Monroe? They feel fame gives them some kind of privilege to walk up to you and say anything to you, you know, of any kind of nature and it won’t hurt your feelings.”

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    – Marilyn to Richard Meryman for LIFE Magazine published on August 17th 1962.

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                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    The Little Book of Marilyn: Inspiration From The Goddess of Glam by Michelle Morgan; Book Review.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    If there’s one Author to be excited about, upon hearing an announcement of an up and coming Marilyn book, it’s none other than Michelle Morgan. Michelle has been a true super fan since discovering the beautiful blonde on a postcard, whilst Holidaying in Devon in 1985. Since then, she has gone on to write a staggering six books devoted to my favourite lady, with her first being Marilyn’s Addresses, written over twenty years ago in 1995. Therefore, all I can say is – thank you Devon!

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    In the almost nine years since I first Discovered Marilyn, I’ve been incredibly lucky to not only find and appreciate Michelle as a wonderful writer – recommending her work to many Marilyn fans, but I’ve also been able to call her my friend! Not only have her books taught me so much about Marilyn the human and artist, she has always supported me by listening and offering me advice with her kind words  – something which has always been greatly treasured.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    I’ve been very fortunate to know about The Little Book of Marilyn for over a year and for one almost surreal reason why – Michelle kindly asked me if I wanted to be interviewed for inclusion in the book! Needless to say I didn’t hesitate for a moment to say yes and one month before publication, I’ve kindly received a complimentary copy of the book to share my thoughts with you all! 

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    If you’ve read any of Michelle’s books then you’ll know you’re never disappointed and she always manages to blow even the highest expectations out of the water. Therefore, it’s no surprise to say that The Little Book of Marilyn, is of course, no different! 

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    The book features a stunning glamour shot of Marilyn with a beautiful pink and orange Fleur-de-lis background, it’s flexibound format means it will always stay in beautiful condition and its travel size makes it easy to carry around with you and stay inspired by only the best! If the beautiful outer packaging wasn’t enough, the 224 pages are filled with many high quality pictures – quite a few rare ones too!

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    The contents include the following sections;
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                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    Introduction

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    Chapter 1: Her Story

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    Chapter 2: Inspiration

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    Chapter 3: Style 

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    Chapter 4: Beauty

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    Chapter 5: Life Skills

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    Chapter 6: Personal Effects 

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    Chapter 7: Walk With Marilyn
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                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    It’s no secret that there have been definitely hundreds, possibly thousands of books written on Marilyn since her passing, almost fifty seven years ago. A unique few, (Michelle’s most definitely are included) have been amazing, a fair amount have been pretty good and a large sum have been downright awful. However, none have had this fabulous concept and that is further reason for it to be a must have in any collection.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    It’s full of details on Marilyn’s life and career, but includes many tutorials and lessons on how to be inspired by a Star that is so often misrepresented in society and the media. Michelle offers a true, genuine insight into the real Marilyn and stays clear of the ridiculous conspiracies and lies. She gives fans like myself, the chance to express just how truly inspiring Marilyn has been to so many even half a century after she left us. The guide like format means you can read it in any order you please or choose to focus on a particular section that is interesting to you.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    Ironically enough, I feel the person that would benefit from reading this book the most is Marilyn herself, she was her biggest critic and often full of doubt and disbelief. Therefore, I feel if she could read and see the impact she has had on the millions of fans who love and appreciate her, she may have felt just a little less alone.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    Lastly, on behalf of all Marilyn fans, I want to thank Michelle for writing such beautiful books about Hollywood’s Brightest Star and continuing to educate and preserve Marilyn’s very special memory. A big thank you to Running Press for publishing Michelle’s amazing work and for kindly gifting me this beautiful copy, I will truly treasure it!

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    The Little Book of Marilyn is available to Pre-Order from Amazon UK at £11.34 and will be released on July 25th and is out in the USA on July 9th!

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